I understand and it's ok :)

I have started over with a clean slate for everyone this year trying to make old friendships stronger.. In my ventures of trying to do so it has pushed some people in my life away. I can understand that noone wants to get hurt or go through the things they went through once already. I myself don't want to be hurt again, I also am learning that holding grudges and closing up will only bring more stress into my life. I am going with the flow and hoping that wherever life brings me is an adventure.. Life has so much to offer and teach us, we just have to be open minded and open hearted to change :) Sure there will be bumps along that road but where would we be if we let all the bumps stop us from continuing down life's road. Stop and smell the roses, enjoy the scenery, and just take it all in, every little detail. Memories last forever and you don't want to miss a thing :) you never know when it's your time and don't want to have regrets of things you wished you would've done. 


We are only human and we all make mistakes. That's part of life, even though you can choose which path to take, just take a random path and see where it takes you.. you can leave bread crumbs to find your way back :) Nothing is permanent unless you make it so. If you find yourself feeling out of sorts or lost just remember who you are and where you come from, keep faith that you will know how to find your way back.. 


I have been trying to sort things out in my life myself and I have come to the conclusion that if any of my friends are reevaluating their lives then when you find where you want to be if I am not a part of that new beginning then that's ok, I hold no grudges nor will I think any different of you. We all have to find where we belong and it doesn't always include those who we thought would be a part of that with us. It's the experiences that we will always keep with us and the memories, good and bad. I do love all of my friends no matter where your path leads, I will always remember the good times we had and wish nothing but the best and all the happiness in the world for you and your families :) 


If you find that you think my post is a bunch of bull then that's ok too, I am just writing my feelings and want everyone to know that my intentions are good whether they are taken that way or not is a whole other story but this is my sincere thoughts and feelings and I hope you can see where I am coming from and understand I never meant to cause any problems, I am sorry if that's what it came out to be but that was not my intention.